Days 16 & 17

I am SORE today! I’ve been working on that Chin Dip Leg Raise Station (I love that name) and oh my gosh it hurts!! The one I bought is built for a big strong man, not a wimpy little girl. The one at the women’s gym is so much easier to use! This machine is killing my arms, not my abs. After using it for a few days though, I was finally able to hold the handles the proper way last night and do some leg lifts (not many though, I have absolutely no upper body strength!). But I will just keep using it and building up my endurance.

I increased my 2 miles to 3 miles last night. The extra mile didn’t bother me one bit. So tonight I am going to increase the 3 to 5. A few years ago my mother and I would do 5 miles almost everyday, of course that is when we were both on a gnarly diet pill that gave us a ton of energy. – Speaking of diet pills or diet drinks or any type of drug advertised to lose weight, I think it is a crock. Yes, those things may help you, but once you stop taking it, then what? Your appetite comes back your energy levels go back down and you get fat again (trust me, I’ve used my fair share of diet pills over the years). I’ve decided that the only way to lose weight and actually keep it off is hard work. You have to change your life style. Healthy food and exercise have to have a permanent residence in your life (this is my new outlook).

I’m still doing great with my eating, I haven’t cheated once! However, today I am struggling. My boss brought in donuts. Delicious old fashioned donuts, I want one! They smell so good! I keep going in the kitchen just to smell them. My Uncle Darrin’s sister KariAnn used to chew fattening food (just to get the taste) but then spit it out so she doesn’t get the calories. I always thought that was weird. However, I am seriously contemplating putting that into practice today… BUT I won’t. Having the donut taste is not as important to me as losing weight, so I am going to stay away. The smell will have to do. It’s such sweet torture!!